urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell no need to focus when theres nothing thats worth seeing Kati 2006-07-06T16:41:39Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:85746 2006-07-06T16:41:39Z 2006-07-06T16:41:39Z ok so 4th of july started out pretty not bad, then my phone went swimming sooooo i dont have any of your numbers so call me or text me or something so i can replace them cuz i will miss you guys urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:85424 2006-06-16T22:08:00Z 2006-06-16T22:08:00Z so um im moving to illinois next weekend. kevin sat with his fingers up his ass so it cost me like 100 bucks extra. oh well, hes cute so i forgive him. i went to illinois for three weeks and ive been home for two. i kinda hate it here. im glad to go back but its scary because im gonna have to be grown up and be on my own. im staying at paiges for three weeks then hopefully getting an apartment. i kinda forget to do this anymore its sad really. oh well ill be ok urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:85114 2006-06-16T22:03:10Z 2006-06-16T22:03:10Z LAST PERSON WHO<br />+ Slept in your bed: besides me...ken? i dunno i sleep in everyone elses beds<br />+ Saw you cry: kevin<br />+ Spent the night at your house: ken,kerry, mike, jacques and asian chris<br />+ You shared a drink with: kirston and melissa at kerrys party<br />+ You went to the movies with: hannah abby and maddie Over the hedge sooo good<br />+ You went to the mall with: my sister and the girls and my mom to get pictures.<br />+ Yelled at you: kevin<br />+ Sent you an e-mail: tangerine, they wanted me to go clubbin for some supermodels birthday<br />HAVE YOU EVER...<br />+ Said "I love you" and meant it? YES <br />+ Been to New York? yes<br />+ Been to Florida? no i will never<br />+ California? yes<br />+ Hawaii? no<br />+ Mexico? yes<br />+ China? no<br />+ Canada? yes<br />+ Danced naked? who hasnt<br />+ Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? its not usually the next day but a couple days after<br />+ Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? Yeah, that happens a lot.<br />+ Had your heart broken? yep<br />+ Been the heart breaker? yep<br />+ Wish you were the opposite sex? i think if i could just pee standing up too i wouldnt wanna be a boy<br />+ Had an imaginary friend? no<br />RANDOM<br />+ What are you going to do after you finish this survey? hopefully make plane reservations<br />+ What was the last food you ate? lo mein<br />+ High school or college? College<br />+ Are you bored? nope<br />+ How many buddies are on? 5 and 10 away<br />+last movie you saw? the heathers<br />+ Last noise you heard? jerk from ra on the phone<br />+ Last time you went out of the state: 2 weeks ago<br />+ Do you have a crush on someone? a super duper one<br />+ Do they know? yes they do<br />+ What's his/her name? kevin <br />+ Does s/he know who you are? yep,but sometimes he forgets me.<br />+ What book are you reading now? a huge book or short stories of terror<br />+ Favorite board game? outta control<br />+ Favorite magazine? newsweek<br />+ How many times have you been in love? once with a boy<br />+ Worst feeling in the world? guilt<br />+ What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? ugh its 5:30 and kevins calling again :)<br />+ How many rings before you answer? depends who it is<br />+ Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No.<br />+ If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? i have no idea <br />+ Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrious? Righty<br />+ Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? no<br />+ What's under your bed? some allen wrenches and a sword<br />+ Hair Color: brown<br />+ Eye Color: brown<br />+ Height Currently: 5’6"<br />+ Glasses/contacts: no<br />+ Current Age:19<br />+ Location: my house<br />+ Best Friends: paige <br />+ Boyfriend/Girlfriend: not yet<br />+ Are You Timely Or Always Late: On time<br />+ Do You Have A Job: not at the moment<br />+ Do You Like Being Around People: i hate being alone<br />+ Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no<br />+ Have You Ever Cried Over What Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: yep <br />+DoYou Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: no<br />+ Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: yep<br />+ Are You Lonely Right Now: yes<br />+ Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: yes<br />+ Do You Want To Get Married: Yes. <br />+ Do You Want Kids: no.<br /><br />FAVORITE<br />+ Room In house/apartment: My bedroom.<br />+ Type of music: all kinds<br />+ Day Of The Week: tuesday<br />+ Color: brown<br />+ Month: june<br />+ Season: summer<br />IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:<br />+ Cried: yes<br />+ Bought Something: plane ticket for kevin<br />+ Gotten Sick: No<br />+ Sang: YES!<br />+ Said I Love You: Yes.<br />+ Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: yes<br />+ Met Someone New: yep.<br />+ Moved On: planning it<br />+ Talked To Someone: yep<br />+ Had A Serious Talk: yep<br />+ Missed Someone: Yes.<br />+ Hugged Someone: Yes.<br />+ Kissed Someone: No.<br />+ Fought With Your Parents: No.<br />+ Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: yep <br />+ Had a lot of sleep: Nope. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:84988 2006-05-03T00:08:20Z 2006-05-03T00:08:20Z im sorry i didnt get to say goodbye but ill love you forever and i miss you already <br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00009dqt/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00009dqt/s320x240" width="320" height="223" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/0000adc5/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/0000adc5/s320x240" width="320" height="213" border="0" /></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:84507 2006-04-27T07:06:35Z 2006-04-27T07:06:35Z k im never updating my journal again cuz everytime i do it goes crazy urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:84269 2006-04-27T06:50:59Z 2006-04-27T07:04:58Z this will be a picture post since im lazy.<br /><br />first is my birthday at margaritaville. notice the ginormous margarita next to me so good<br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00004s1s/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00004s1s/s320x240" width="320" height="237" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/000058xh/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/000058xh/s320x240" width="320" height="237" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/000067e5/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/000067e5/s320x240" width="320" height="237" border="0" /></a><br /><br />then its my birthday hangout at my house actually this came first<br /><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00001wd2/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00001wd2/s320x240" width="320" height="237" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00002991/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00002991/s320x240" width="320" height="237" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00003rpx/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00003rpx/s320x240" width="320" height="237" border="0" /></a><br /><br />then me and kelly took a roadtrip<br /><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00007fkx/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00007fkx/s320x240" width="320" height="237" border="0" /></a><br /><br />then i got a really really bad sunburn<br /><br /><a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00008r25/"><img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/secret_to_tell/pic/00008r25/s320x240" width="320" height="237" border="0" /></a><br />but im better now<br />the end urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:83728 2006-03-16T14:28:51Z 2006-03-16T14:31:28Z lets see sunday was my birthday. i was pumped for this one, as it had some potential to rock but then it turned out like every other birthday.<br /> we were supposed to have a party for me saturday night but due to the stupidity of someone friday night, there is no longer partying at the apt. <br /> so then we had to stop at melissas friends hotel party. it was a bunch of 9th adn 10th grad wanna be skater punks who all thought they were cool for smoking and drinking beer. so we stayed about 20 mintutes before we all about died. and i was in heels that night adn a fancy dress so i was dying. <br /> ill try to get some pictures uploaded later i cant find my camera. but hannah called me at 1130 and john called me at 12. so then the boys were calling around trying to find parties when my mom called and asked if i was coming home because she was gonna stay at my stepdads if i was staying out. so i said i was staying out and we got some bacardi hurricane and headed back to my house.<br /> i was in a bad mood already cuz it was a shitty night then ken was on the phone to sabrina all night adn then was like lets go pick her up. we are driving my little car adn he wants the 4 of us to go pick up sabrina and her friend, i was not happy. because kerry was driving and i didnt wanna be crammed with that bitch and her friend in the back seat of my car. so we ended up driving all the way over there and she didnt even answer the door or her phone. so i was double pissed<br /> then we came back to my house and i just wanted to go to bed, but i had to take them home, it was like 5 and i was near tears because josh hadnt called yet (we broke up again for those of you who dont know. maybe for good this time but i hope not. i seriously miss him so much and i cannot live with only talking to him once a week like it is now. sorry im getting emo). so everyone was like kati you arent coming in? and i was like no im goin home. so they leave and kerry drives a stick so the e brake was on and it got stuck. so i lose it and start crying.<br /> so i call kerry to ask him to come fix it and he says ok and he comes out the to car and gets in and i said its stuck and look over but its ken. and hes like whats wrong. they had been asking me this all night but i just said i was tired because i didnt wanna talk about it. so i said nothing and he keeps pestering me and i cry some more and eventually tell him a few of the things not all. and he tries to talk me into staying again but i really didnt want to sleep with him and james and kirston,so i went home. <br /> then micah came and we went to margaritaville and kicked it for a while. that was pretty fun. and i hung out with them for a few nights picking out their clubbin clothes. but they left a day early so now im tryin to find someone to go to phoenix with me this weekend but everyone is busy. so if i cant then i wont get to see him again til may and ill be sad. <br /> so all together my birthday mostly sucked. one of my tons of aunts and uncles called me and only three of my friends called to tell me happy birthday. next year will be better. <br /> im getting pretty sick of everyone but ken and kerry though. mike and clarence lock themselves in their rooms and james is just an asshole. and the drunk girls who were once funny are now wearing on my nerves. maybe this is why i cant keep friends long because they just all start to drive me crazy. i dunno though, ken and kerry will be home tonight ill see them then.<br />ps. happy birthday alic urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:83563 2006-03-09T23:31:13Z 2006-03-09T23:31:13Z Gotta change my answering machine<br />Now that I'm alone<br />Cuz right now it says that we<br />Can't come to the phone<br />And I know it makes no sense<br />Cuz you walked out the door<br />But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore<br />(it's ridiculous)<br />It's been months<br />And for some reason I just<br />(can't get over us)<br />And I'm stronger than this<br />(enough is enough)<br />No more walkin round<br />With my head down<br />I'm so over being blue<br />Cryin over you<br /><br />And I'm so sick of love songs<br />So tired of tears<br />So done with wishing you were still here<br />Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow<br />So why can't I turn off the radio?<br /><br />Gotta fix that calender I have<br />That's marked July 15th<br />Because since there's no more you<br />There's no more anniversary<br />I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you<br />And your memory<br />And how every song reminds me<br />Of what used to be<br /><br />That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs<br />So tired of tears<br />So done with wishing you were still here<br />Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow<br />So why can't I turn off the radio?<br /><br />(Leave me alone)<br />Leave me alone<br />(Stupid love songs)<br />Dont make me think about her smile<br />Or having my first child<br />I'm letting go<br />Turning off the radio<br /><br />Cuz I'm so sick of love songs<br />So tired of tears<br />So done with wishing she was still here<br />Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow<br />So why can't I turn off the radio? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:83419 2006-03-02T11:51:06Z 2006-03-02T11:51:06Z it amazing how wonderful everything goes at the end of february and i get excited about how great my birthday is going to be finally finally. and then everything goes to shit, every fuckin year. i was so excited but why should this be any different. its not who i am. its not who i am going to be, i just cant have a happy birthday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:83046 2006-02-28T22:43:26Z 2006-02-28T22:43:26Z today is national pancake day, so we got free pancakes from IHOP. they were way better that not free pancakes. so guess what all you haters, you can get stuff for free.<br /><br /><br />fuck shoes urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:82817 2006-02-14T22:23:11Z 2006-02-14T22:23:11Z fuck valentines day urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:82686 2006-02-06T14:43:51Z 2006-02-06T14:43:51Z ok so i love this song, its cheesy pop punk but it has an amazing message and its something i need to work on.<br />Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking <br />When you fall everyone sins <br />Another day and you've had your fill of sinking <br />With the life held in your <br />Hands are shaking cold <br />These hands are meant to hold <br /><br />Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong <br />Move along, move along like I know you do <br />And even when your hope is gone <br />Move along, move along just to make it through <br />Move along <br />Move along <br /><br />So a day when you've lost yourself completely <br />Could be a night when your life ends <br />Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving <br />All the pain held in your <br />Hands are shaking cold <br />Your hands are mine to hold <br /><br />Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong <br />Move along, move along like I know you do <br />And even when your hope is gone <br />Move along, move along just to make it through <br />Move along <br />(Go on, go on, go on, go on) <br /><br />When everything is wrong we move along <br />(Go on, go on, go on, go on) <br />When everything is wrong, we move along <br />Along, along, along <br /><br />When all you got to keep is strong <br />Move along, move along like I know you do <br />And even when your hope is gone <br />Move along, move along just to make it through urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:82388 2006-02-06T14:29:43Z 2006-04-28T20:33:15Z ok so my mom is in hawaii that means i had the house to myself. i came up with the bright idea to have a party. so a month of planning 2 days of frustration and stressing and about 2 hours of hopelessness the first person shows up. that means me and court and kelly and ariel and it gets later and later and ariel has to go to some thing with the football team or whatnot something boy like and i'm dying because i worked really hard and no one is here.<br /><br /> as he is leaving azn chris shows up with 5 cars of people to save my day. a while ago we went to some kick backs and met amazing people and they all came over and it got fun. courtney was having sad problems over cliff and was on a mission to get drunk and have meaningless make outs. and she had a few. but there's this guy named ken so f-in hot. and she was trying to make out with him but he wasn't having it. which i thought was great because i wanted to make out with ken and court is prettier than i am. <br /><br />later a bunch of people left so it was court passed out drunk jacques passed out upstairs on my bed, which made me sad because ken had been flirting with me all night EEEEP and he said he was gonna sleep in my bed with me and me and mike and azn chris and ken were d/s.<br /><br /> then the boys taught me and my white girl self how to slow dance and then ken taught me how to crip walk, yes i was crip walking what. and then mike who has a girlfriend was flirting with me the whole night to so i was trying not to act like ken was f-ing hot because they are roommates and i didn't want them to get mad or something i dunno. <br /><br />then ken fell asleep on the couch and we went out to watch the sunrise but there were bats so i got scared and came inside and then they came in after the sunrise and went to bed but i cant sleep on the floor so i was awake then everyone else woke up and i made pancakes and then everyone left at like one. <br /><br />but before the pancakes kerry kens other roommate called and said they got in trouble with the night manager and couldnt have the party for jacques there because hes leaving for boot camp thursday and me and all my dumbassness said let's just have it here there's tons of alcohol left, because there was. so everyone came back at like 11 but with more people and kerry came this time so that was nice and tons more azns <br /><br /> the boys drank 2 bottles of jagermeister and were doing shots of tequila like crazy. and they were all like kati do shots with us and i was like no sick so every time they did a shot they made me drink a glass of orange soda and vanilla vodka and i got really drunk like hannah drunk <br /><br /> everyone was dancing and playing rock paper scissors and i'm the only single girl there and i never get boy attention so i'm loving it and ken is standing close and making me drink his drinks and mike is like "if i didn't have a girl friend i would holla at you for real" he lives with three black guys so he can say stuff like this. and i was like aw <br /><br />did i mention ken can sing and mike can rap so they do these little duets of things they made up. and then everyone leaves again so its azn chris jacques kerry ken and mike and mike is really bad because he did a lot of shots and wants to walk home <br /><br />oh ya they live close to me which makes me really happy because now i can have friends that i can hang out with all the time because they arent far away but still hes drunk and anyways he sneaks off so chris and ken go look for him and me and jacques wait for him to get back because kerry had to leave because some fat girls were at his house looking for him so he was gonna get them and bring them back <br /><br />but then they didn't come back so i was like wtf is mike ok but really they had to take care of one of the fat drunk girls and mike so they left at like 6 and came back at like 9 then i gave them the alcohol because obv i can't have it here and then they left and then ken started texting me and we texted til about 12 <br /><br /> holy crap we are gonna be "teammates" with all the dirtiness it implies. so i am crapping my pants excited. this boy is hot. i seriously can't believe i landed him. this entry is pretty much my longest one ever. hannah will be proud. my mom comes back tuesday which will be nice because its lonely when there's no one around. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:81966 2006-02-03T10:07:56Z 2006-02-03T10:07:56Z happy 18th birthday luke! <br />go buy some porn.<br /><br />also, what is your address urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:81747 2006-01-23T09:09:39Z 2006-01-23T09:09:39Z so i was in illinois for a month. josh mostly locked me away in the room like rapunzel. i saw maddie a lot, hung with paige some and not enough with hannah. i saw my grandma and aunt. filled them in. had some family issues. now im home and things are back to normal unfortunately. i am not doing well at all this week. i went to a party last night and met some great kids but still i wasnt me. my phone is broken so i miss it alot. thats about it. oh ya i know that noone in las vegas reads this but im having a party next weekend if you guys wanna come you are all invited. hopefully that will be awesome. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:81562 2005-12-18T00:26:28Z 2005-12-18T00:26:28Z dear joshua tyler scott,<br />happy birthday. i will see you soon<br />love,<br />kati urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:81275 2005-12-08T00:40:28Z 2005-12-08T00:40:28Z im stealing from hannah cuz i like it<br /><br />Jan:i feel like crying for a while, then slitting my throat.<br />Feb:everything about you is a picture worth a thousand words.<br />Mar:my journal has returned like a phoenix....ressurrected from the ashes<br />Apr:mind if i die for a while? no? thanks.<br />May:i havent had a computer for about 924857 days. nothing really new. <br />Jun:just got back from cali.<br />Aug:this week has been fun because liz decided it would be cool to e stalk hannah.<br />Sep:today started out ok.<br />Oct:im seeing reggie and the fuckin full effect in like 45 minutes bitches.<br />Nov:ok now im miserable once again.<br />Dec: <a href="http://www.reviewjournal.com/lvrj_home/2005/Sep-29-Thu-2005/living/3513465.html">http://www.reviewjournal.com/lvrj_home/2005/Sep-29-Thu-2005/living/3513465.html</a><br /><br /><br />Jan: I have no idea<br />Feb: Brandtson lyrics<br />Mar: Apparently i quit my journal i bet that lasted all of 1 week<br />Apr: I need to quit being so vague<br />May: I was staying at my grandmas<br />Jun: My one shoulder got super burnt from driving<br />Aug: Holy shit that was funny as hell, i forgot! HANNAH!<br />Sep: It didnt end ok<br />Oct: I didnt get to see them, i had to be somewhere cuz they were late.<br />Nov: Josh left that day<br />Dec: Im in the paper!<br /><br /><br />mine wasnt as cool as hannahs, im too vague, ill work on that next year, itll be my resolution. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:81095 2005-12-06T09:06:32Z 2005-12-06T09:06:32Z ninja turtles song! <p>today we got a box turtle. hes so flippin cute. his name is cabbie, short for cab driver. when he gets bigger we are going to paint him yellow and checkered like a cab, and talk to him in accents, but thats getting racist. sorry if the pics clog your friends page.</p> <p><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y143/whitericeluver/tut.jpg"></p> <p>this is where he lives, i built him a garage. hes so cute and smallish.</p> <p><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y143/whitericeluver/tut2.jpg"></p> <p>hes kinda sleepy his eyes are half closed. </p> <p><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y143/whitericeluver/tut3.jpg"></p> <p>look at his itty bitty tail. how cute are his little feet too.</p> <p><img src="http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y143/whitericeluver/tut1.jpg"></p> <p>this just shows how little he is, ignore my stupid face. god damn he is cute and awesome. we almost just lost him though cuz he dug in his stuff and we couldnt find him for a while. </p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>also you guys should leave me comments because i havent gotten any in a long time.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:80795 2005-12-02T00:52:54Z 2005-12-02T00:52:54Z <a href="http://www.reviewjournal.com/lvrj_home/2005/Sep-29-Thu-2005/living/3513465.html">http://www.reviewjournal.com/lvrj_home/2005/Sep-29-Thu-2005/living/3513465.html</a><br /><br />im famouser than you now.<br />more famous.<br />whatever. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:80487 2005-12-01T07:12:14Z 2005-12-01T07:12:14Z im trying so hard to make you happy. i dont know what else to do. i want to give up because it feels like thats what you want. i want you to move on if it will make you happy. i just dont think i could afford to lose you. please just tell me you love me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:80208 2005-11-30T03:37:42Z 2005-11-30T03:37:42Z only 20 days til i go to illinois, i cant wait to get out of here. hannah is picking me up. then im stayin at paiges, thats gonna be fun wink wink. we are gonna sleep in the same bed and make out all the time. mmm and i get to eat lots of la fiesta. also i get to see maddie i cant wait. i missed that girl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:79942 2005-11-28T16:23:08Z 2005-11-28T16:23:08Z its been 23 hours and 40 minutes. it still doesnt feel any better. i just want to hear his voice. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:79676 2005-11-27T20:39:54Z 2005-11-27T20:39:54Z When I fall into dream-sleep again<br /><br />and return to the favorite time<br /><br />when you and I were held together<br /><br />adheared (?) with laughter and common-ground<br /><br />does that mean everything's alright?<br /><br />If it were us against the world tomorrow<br /><br />faceing off towards fierce adversity<br /><br />Like it was in the begginng<br /><br />Would we survive to feel like we do now again?<br /><br />Or would we even care?<br /><br />Lying in bed<br /><br />listening to your melodic breath-taking<br /><br />Trying to understand what you're telling me<br /><br />to see the hidden meaning behind what's already hidden<br /><br />So maybe I can find a better reason to want<br /><br />to need you like I do.<br /><br />Because I cannot place a label<br /><br />on why I'm so in love with you<br /><br />on why I can't stop thinking of your name<br /><br />the one that echos from the first time I heard it<br /><br />Like the pressure on my lips<br /><br />from that first taste of happiness<br /><br />I remember it all<br /><br />and I'll love you<br /><br />for as long as the time we spent together<br /><br />remains in my memories urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:79370 2005-11-23T14:18:00Z 2005-11-23T14:18:00Z i typed this thing and now i have to do it again. <br /><br />basketball game tonight was awesome. we showed up early at like 5 for the music video. there was maybe 20 of us there and they ordered like 40 pizzas. anyways we sat around waiting for them to film it and c and k and i were talking about something and poprocks came up and i told them the old poprocks trick. well then the girl founder of rebel nation was in front of us and heard and turned around and was like zomg rly? and then went and told everyone, well all the older guys that were around and they all came up and made comments and it was embarassing, but now im known as poprocks to the RN. the coach always comes over before the games and thanks the student section for showing up and i shook his hand and he gave me a t shirt that you cant buy anywhere. that was sweet. also, for those of you who care, our coach used to coach the illini.we sat second row behind the guys who yell everything. so we were on tv alot, i just saw me on the news. im so frickin cool. anyways be kicked hawaiis butt 61-67. the game was close the entire time but they kept fouling us at the end so we made some easy points. the guy infront was like hawaiians like to fight, they will fight anyone, they even fight each other. so afterwards in the parking lot everyone was kicking the shit out of each other. we saw some guy get kneed in the face. it was awesome. there were cops everywhere. saturday is the UNR game, its gonna be crazy. also #22 is the best worst player ever. hes only allowed to do certain things, running the ball down the court is not one of them. but he was the leading point scorer in this game and one of the exhibition games. and god damn is this kid hot, he has the BEST arms i have ever seen. and then he gets sweaty and shiny. i love it. also he has good hair and thats important.<br /><br />so i read all my old journal entries, starting at the beginning, and holy shit. i used to be the bigest whiniest pot smoking bitch. it makes me pretty sad though. my very first entry was about alicia licking me. that girl was my best friend for a long time and now i would have no idea what to say to her if i saw her. i was also reminded of a bunch of things, like when i dated jake and all that stuff with brian ma. and TONY, what a loser. and luke used to comment all the time with cute things. and i was also completely obessed with john, there was an entry where i was like i talked to his friend mike today. now i talk to mike all the time and john hardly ever. also ive been thinking about getting away alot lately. the first thing that reminds me of is when kerri and i used to run away for the nights. we'd just get in the car and drive. just watching the stars, listening to music. just completely comfortable in each others silence. i was reading and the last comment she left was on my birthday and then in june, i said something to her about her wedding and she was completely hostile. im still pretty sad about that. i dont know why but i hate that there is that hate there from her, im glad shes happy and if staying away makes her happy than thats what ill do but it still hurts. i really still one cant stand one person. everyone else i think about alot, which is weird, i just wonder what they are doing and how they are. ok im being done this is getting too crazy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:secret_to_tell:79107 2005-11-19T06:06:38Z 2005-11-19T06:06:38Z freakin 103-78 hows that for the first real game of the season.<br />rebel nation are jerks though, show some sportsmanship.<br /><br /><br />Win with the Rebels<br />a Victory today!<br />Win with the Rebels<br />the Scarlet and Grey!<br />From the mountains that surround you<br />to far across the sea,<br />We'll win with the Rebels of UNLV!<br />U... N... L... V...<br />UNLV Go! Fight! Win!<br />We'll win with the Rebels of UNLV!